When to let the world know?

Well, this is the big week. In just 3 short days, we will get to see our little one again. I am getting more and more nervous the closer it gets. Also, I am trying to decide, if everything is okay on Thursday...and we see our little one with a strong heartbeat, growing the way he/she should...when do we give people (mostly our parents) the okay to spread the word. I still really wanted to wait until we get past the 1st trimester. I know that we won't have another ultrasound...or even another chance to hear the heartbeat until my next appt at probably 15 weeks, and obviously we can't make them wait that long (for one, b/c I think people will start to figure it out by then)...so is there much point to waiting an extra 2 weeks when we won't be getting any more "confirmation" that everything is okay between this Thursday and the official end of the 1st trimester? My biggest concern is that on Monday I have to make the dreaded trip to Denver. Yes...the trip that I began to lose my first pregnancy on. Granted...I have already been to Denver with this little bean...just hadn't taken the pg test yet (but I knew I was pg and took it the day I got home) and so far as we know, this pregnancy is progressing just as it should. And I KNOW that there is no reason not to go...that everything should be fine. Doesn't stop me from worrying. So I'd kind of like to wait until after that. And I really thought it would be no problem to just make our parents wait until we hit 13 weeks to tell people...however I know that the ILs are getting ridiculously impatient (to the point of MIL making a comment on Friday that she "has all her friends praying for me" Um..you what?! How are all your friends praying for me if I TOLD you not to tell anyone?!?). Also, when I mentioned that we had an u/s on Thursday, FIL said, "So will that be the big coming out date then? Can we tell people?" "No, I'd still like to wait until the end of the first trimester", I said. His response: Well, isn't that only like another week...12 weeks, right? My reponse: Nope, its technically 13 weeks, 3 days. His response: eye rolling. So, like I said...they are impatient. But you know what, this is my baby, my pregnancy, and I will let people know when I am ready. B/c if something happens...I am going to have to be the one dealing with the comments...the people who heard the good news but not the bad. And I don't want to have to run that risk. I think my mom is hoping to tell people after this ultrasound too...b/c she was talking about how she didn't know how she would make it through until then. Sometimes I think we should have waited to tell anyone at all....but I don't think I could have hid it from all of them...what with the nausea, exhaustion, and not being able to do certain things (stain the front porch, drink champagne at the little wedding celebration on Friday, etc.). And it has been nice to have at least my mom's support. The ILs, honestly, have been more annoying than anything b/c even though they say the "get it" when it comes to how nervous we are due to our previous loss...it is obvious in so many ways, that they don't.

So what to do...do we let the word start spreading starting on Thursday (assuming all goes well...see, I can't even type things without adding the "if" in...when will this uncertainty and fear go away?!). Or do we wait...and make our impatient parents wait...an extra 2 weeks so that we are technically in the long sought after "2nd trimester"? What to do....

Double digit weeks!

So I thought I'd be better at updating this...not so much. But yesterday we hit 10 weeks. Seems like a big milestone to me! Of course I am still constantly wondering how I KNOW everything is still okay. I mean, sure, I feel nauseous pretty much everyday at this point (still haven't thrown up, yay!) and I am exhausted by mid-afternoon (sometimes earlier)...but still.... Luckily, our next ultrasound is one week from yesterday. The time is flying by!

Tomorrow is my SIL's baby shower, she is due Oct 23...and was 7 weeks ahead of me in my first pregnancy. I am so grateful to be pregnant now...I was really afraid of how I would get through her shower if I wasn't pg yet. I just pray that this pregnancy continues and our little one keeps growing strong and healthy...then we will have a shower of our own in a few more months!

In other news, my BIL is getting married today! Just a quick courthouse wedding...and no, she's not pregnant or anything. They were already engaged and planning a wedding for Sept 2009. However, she is going back to school this fall and doesn't qualify for financial aid on her own, and they can't afford the tuition, but apparently if they are married, then she can qualify. Also, she can get on his health insurance, which she needs b/c she didn't even have any until recently and is now buying her own (which is expensive b/c she she has pre-existing conditions). So its pretty much all just for the legality...and they will still have their big wedding next fall. Kind of interesting...and definitely took us by surprise...but I suppose it makes sense.

So, a big weekend for the in-laws all around!

In farming news...silage is coming along nicely. Kelly got a lot chopped before the rain started...and now the rest will have to wait until next week when the rain lets up again. In the meantime, maybe I can put him to work inside the house, since I have been too sick and too tired to accomplish much myself! :)

Nine Weeks

Wow. 9 weeks. Hard to believe we are that far already. Granted...I'd still like to fast forward right into the 2nd trimester, but I am so grateful that we are this far already. The last couple of weeks have gone really fast, so I'm hoping it continues that way. We have our next appointment, which includes the nuchal translucency scan in 2 weeks. So I am really excited to see our little one again! They also said we could actually hear a heartbeat then. yay!

Oh...and when we told the parents...they were thrilled! I think they really liked the way we told them, I know both moms really liked their little photo books and their first pictures of the baby! I think they were all a little disappointed that they had to keep it a secret for a few more weeks, but they understand why. My mom is already being overprotective of me...and my MIL is already buying things. Oh boy...here we go!!!